Monday, December 14, 2009

I Just Changed My Mind


I was sitting here writing a different blog, and changed my mind. I want to write about a little boy and his younger sister.

My husband and I went to New Orleans this past summer. Now, of course it was an amazing trip, considering neither of us had been. But this trip to me, was a little bit more special because we took a day to visit the Lower Ninth Ward and the devastation that the Hurricanes had caused.

We didn't know prior to visiting New Orleans that you could actually go on an organized tour through these areas. Upon perusing the brochures in the Hotel lobby, we learned that you can tour the cemeteries, swamps and "NOW NEW AND IMPROVED TOUR THE DEVASTATION OF THE LOWER NINTH WARD!" *Gulp. That was a little too hokey for me.

I had brought both cameras along on this day trip and an extra memory card. I wasn't prepared to miss a thing. On the other hand, I felt like such a jerk taking photos of other people's misery. It just didn't seem right at the time. Maybe it still isn't right, but I'm a "see it to believe it" kind of girl. The news didn't show me what my own two eyes could. And I wasn't prepared.

Mostly, our drive was silent. We were both astounded at the devastation and ruin in the community. We were both aware of the fact that at many times, we weren't welcome there. I imagine tour buses in your neighborhood will do that to a resident.

We just crept around in our car, feeling sad and astounded all at the same time. I mean, this was four years later and there were piles and piles of garbage in the streets. But this garbage was different. It was walls and carpets and sinks and windows and furniture. It was lives and memories in piles on the roads left to rot in four years of neglect. Utter sadness.


Rounding corners, it was wise to keep an eye on who was watching you. It was wise not to stare. Dark tinted vehicles made their rounds and crept in behind us wondering what we were up to. We just kept going and I kept shooting. People would arise from their porches to gesture to us at street corners wondering "whatchoo lookin' at?"

Understood. This is not a Zoo. You are not on exhibit. This is your neighbourhood and your home. I understand. Driving on...

We passed dumpsters and FEMA trailers and foundations with lone flowers growing at the sidewalk where houses used to stand. We saw unimagineable heartache. Yes, we saw it; and we felt it.

The sun had come out and the clouds were parting when we decided enough was enough. I had my photos and my husband had had his fill of sadness for the day. I looked at the map and suggested that he take a right at the next corner to get us back to the main road and out of the neighbourhood. He argued, but I know my directions if nothing else!

Upon heading to the corner in our rental car, I saw a little guy and his (presumably) younger sister approaching the corner as well. We made a right turn and I watched while Older Brother gently put his arm out and stopped Younger Sister from crossing close to our car.

I smiled at his kind protectiveness and he smiled back at me.

My heart swelled. For the most part, we had been unwelcome in that neighbourhood. We were tourists getting high on other people`s misery.

But for this one quick instant, I realized that just one resident of the Lower Ninth Ward knew I saw the good and the kind and he smiled at a complete stranger in a car.

So, I was going to blog about how much I really dislike coffee, but instead, I remembered this little boy and his sister. I hope he shot hoops that day and that she cheered him on. I hope they found a safe place to play amidst that heartache and that they were happy for the afternoon.

I don`t know what home they went back to, or where they lived. I don`t know if they have a backyard to play in and warm safe beds at night. I do hope that we all remind our children and friends and loved ones how lucky we all really are.




Tuesday, December 8, 2009

An Open Letter To Winter


You're lucky I like you, winter. Because some others don't. They try to exclude you, uninvite you, dislike you.

But I like you.

I like having an excuse to turn on the fireplace and get warm. I adore bundling up and heading out while the snowflakes are falling. I love nothing more than watching big, clumsy snowflakes make their way to their final resting place. (What? They DO know they're going to die there where they land.)

I like -no I LOVE- Egg Nogg. You can only get it at Christmastime but I would use it year-'round on my cereal if I could. My mom used to mix it with Amaretto and I'd do anything to be allowed to have a sip. I started young, Winter. But I don't blame you.

I like tobogganing until your toes freeze and your cheeks turn the impossible shade of pink that you wouldn't dare buy at a cosmetics counter. I like wool socks on hardwood floors and runny noses (as long as they're mine or my children's. I'm not wiping YOURS, sorry.)

I like the patterns of frost that you create on the windows and doors and refuse to believe it's inefficient heating in my home. So what? I still don't blame you, Winter.

I like icicles hanging and looking like dangerous teeth on the sides of buildings. You don't scare me, Winter. Your bark is worse than your bite.

And how about seeing my breath in the air? Isn't that just a wonderful phenomenon? Think about it! Crunching snow under your feet and knowing that it's REALLY cold outside and the snow is too cold to even pack. Saying "it's packy snow" and not feeling politically incorrect, because, well, it IS packy! And that means snowballs and snowmen! (It also means war, so keep your head up.)

Most of all, I love nostalgia stinging when I hear any music from Frosty the Snowman, Rudolph or any other movie that is completely inappropriate to watch in June. My youngest has been singing "Silver and Gold" with a perfect low tone and vibrato. I nearly died. He loves it, too. My oldest has learned the "Batman smells" part of Jingle Bells. My heart soared. This... THIS is all you, Winter.

So please, Dear Winter, bring us some snow for Christmas. I have my two front teeth, I cannot possibly house a hippopotamus (I have two dogs and a cat, you see. They won't get along.)

Bring us big, fat, clumsy snowflakes and howling winds and "packy" (yeah I said it...) snow and hot chocolate and numb toes and icicles and frozen ponds and frost patterns on our windows.

Bring us loving families gathered around to eat/drink/be merry. You can even bring the uncle that is only ever seen in family Christmas photos passed out on the couch; the one that has "too much Amaretto in his Egg Nogg".

Bring us peace and love and warmth this Christmas season. Bring it to every single family, rich and poor. Crappy presents, great presents, loving presence and snow.

Bring it on Winter. I like you, and everything you bring.

Sincerely,

Korinne.